These Cold and Rusted Lungs

by Amy Courts

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released 30 July 2008

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Amy Courts Minneapolis, Minnesota

With her trademark impassioned vocals, captivating melodies, and audacious honesty, Amy Courts expresses with effortless fluency her take on love, heartache, spirituality, hope, and personal demons. Though her voice and songs invoke inevitable comparisons to artists like Patty Griffin and Jennifer Knapp, her sound and experience are uniquely her own and are delivered with a rare distinction. ... more

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Track Name: Hold You Up (feat. Matthew Perryman Jones)
You know I know you like the day knows daylight
I know you like the sun knows warm
You know I know who you are

You know I know you in your strength
And when you’re weak you hide your face
You know I love you, I love you anyway

(Chorus)
If I could break, you know I’d break
If I could bend, I’d bend to
Become the knot that holds you up
I’d mend you

If I could speak you know I’d say the right thing
And you would see we’re so much deeper than the depths
It’s us or no one, or no one else

(Chorus)

I love you so much more than all of this
Oh, than all of this
I love you so much more than anything
Than anything else

So if you should break you know I’ll break
If you should bend, I’ll bend too

If I should break, you know I’ll break
If I should bend I’ll bend too
I’ll be the one who holds you up
I’ll mend you, I will mend you, I will mend
Track Name: In You
Standing high upon a mountain
I’ve longed to hear you speak
Turning deafening reels of chaos
Into symphonies of peace
I have longed to see a vision
Fiery pillars in the night
Or to move beyond the mystery
As your glory passes by

But I will still myself
Oh I will wait for you

I will delight myself in you alone
You’re all I’m longing for
I will delight myself in you

Weary nights spent in the valley
I’ve seen you paint the sky
Decorations of your presence
Proof of company divine
Every moment’s one you’ve given
With every breath I breathe your name
In your shelter wounds are mended
Stirring hope in what remains

I offer all myself
Oh, all my hope is you

I will delight myself in you alone
You’re all I’m longing for
I will delight myself in you
And I’ll find my refuge in the love you give
It’s all I’m living for
I will delight myself in you
Track Name: Breathe
Looking over the Catalina’s
Sun sets below a jagged sky
Like a lover in the rearview mirror
Ain’t no questions, no asking why
When it’s over, it’s time to get back on the highway

I ain’t no fan of confession
God knows everything I’ve done, anyway
And I can live with my own conscience
At least, that’s what I tell myself every day
But it’s over, over and over and over

(CHORUS)
Look who’s down
Who’s crying now
Take these cold and rusted lungs
And make them breathe somehow
Turn around
Who’s burning down
Just take this heart of plastic love
And make it real somehow

I didn’t ever stop believing
I just get a little gun shy
Don’t get me wrong, I’ve got it all figured out
But, sometimes I lose the words I’m living by
But it’s over, over and over and over

(CHORUS)

(…Make me feel somehow…)
Oh, well it’s over, I sure miss that light on the mountain

(CHORUS)

(…Make me feel somehow…)
Track Name: Drowning
If I could stop from thinking
Then I might be safe from sinking into this
And if I could stop the doubting
Then I might not be put out by what I miss

Cause there’s always something holding,
Always keeping me from going anywhere
And I am so delirious
And the hope I need’s too furious to care

And I can’t swim this sea
I get pulled under by the waves
That first caught my stubborn gaze
And nothing’s holding me
Keeping me from going down
All I know is I can’t drown

All this over-analyzing,
Oh it’s always patronizing me
I read into every word and pull to pieces what I’ve heard
Until it murders me

And it’s not a pleasant death
To be burdened by the stress of the unknown
And it’s everything I dread, and yet
It’s all inside my head, I ought to let it go
Let it go

Cause I can’t breathe these lies
They’re poison to my hope
Tainting everything I know
And I refuse to die
Like a lamb who’s led astray
I won’t be deceptions prey tonight
Track Name: The Liars
How can you turn and walk away
Leaving me with so much left to say
These questions never answered
Growing in me like a cancer

You said You would never leave me
But now the liars say that You’ve deceived me
And I can’t hear Your voice above the crowd
So can You speak a little louder?

You said You’d never let me go
In my darkest day, I’m not alone
But now the liars say I’m too far gone
And You can’t help me

Oh, You said You’d overcome
But now the liars have me on the run
And You said You would always hear my call
But can You hear my voice at all
Can You hear my voice at all
Can You hear my voice at all

Cause I said I would always love You
And I don’t wanna hear that I can’t trust You
And I said I would always believe

Oh, yeah
You said You would never leave me
But now the liars say that You’ve deceived me
And I can’t hear Your voice above the crowd
So can You speak a little louder
Can You speak a little louder
Can You speak a little louder

You said You’d never let me go…
Track Name: Stand
Take me home, Away from this mess
Away from what’s empty
And only makes breathing irrelevant

Take me home, Away from this distraction
It’s endlessly stealing
All the purpose and feeling within my bones

Oh no, I can’t wait any longer
Oh, no, I can’t wait anymore

(CHORUS)
I cannot stand one more moment
Of tireless living
Endlessly giving what I don’t have
No, I cannot stand one more moment
Where nothing is perfect
It just doesn’t seem worth it
To try again

Take me home, Away from this madness
Where nothing’s worth having
And yet everyone’s grabbing for something more

Take me home, Away from what I’ve become
Away from this tolerance
And the ceaseless indifference to what I know

No, I can’t wait any longer
Oh no, I can’t wait anymore

(CHORUS)

Well all I’ve been searching and hoping for
I can’t even know if it’s there fore sure
And they’ll say it’s all in my head
But it’s working me over
Just get me out of this mess,
And with every last breath I breathe I promise this
I won’t go one more day without You

No, I cannot stand one more moment
I’ve let it rule me
Overcome and undo me, time and again

No, I will not stand one more moment
Living without You
So far from what I know is true
Track Name: O Holy God
O Holy God
May we so small be lifted to your dwelling place
Behold your holiness

O Holy God
May we so small be lifted high to see your face
Behold your loveliness

For we are surely arrogant
And prone to our own ways
And unto us we pray thee lend
Your righteousness
Track Name: Shiver
You want to make me something else
It’s hard enough to be me
You want to wrap me up in bows
And put me on parade

But I’m not what you think
I’ll lose your rings
I’ll toss your string of pearls
I’m not your girl

(CHORUS)
And I thought you had everything I’d ever wanted
But I’m not for sale
And I won’t let you wrap me around your little finger
Pull your guns out, stroke the trigger
You won’t see me shake and shiver

There’s more to life than what you think
And there’s more to thinking
Than to doll up
For the prince of these

But you can’t hide your scars and bruises
You can’t just pretend the things you chose
Don’t own you know

(CHORUS)

You want to pull me into a fight
To prove I need you more than
I need to breathe

(CHORUS)

Pull your guns out and watch me
Pull your guns out and watch me closely
Pull your guns out, stroke the trigger
You won’t see me shake and shiver
Track Name: Inevitable
I’m not who I said I wanted to be anymore
I’m the kind I detest, the kind I abhor
And there don’t seem a way I can walk through that door
Without leaving behind what’s within

Well I’ve never been much for strung-out goodbyes
Let’s just get it done and forget all the little lies
About how we’ll always be friends
Though you know you’ll despise me when it’s over
Is it over

(CHORUS)
Cause I don’t want to face what’s been staring me down
And I don’t want to give up what I’ve been holding out for
But all of these days, and all of these nights
They only prove I’ve been taking my time
To fight what’s inevitable

Well, who’s to say this is not how it’s meant to be
And who’s going to say they know better than chemistry
You can tell me I’m wrong, but I’ll say I don’t feel it in me
But you know that I do
I do

(CHORUS)

Well maybe the Truth isn’t dependent on me
It won’t bend to lend a hand of sympathy
It won’t break or be shaken to make it easier on me
To keep living a lie
I’ve been living a lie

(CHORUS)
Track Name: I Told You So
I’ll lay it out and make it simple for a simpleton to see
Call it easy, that won’t make it easy like it ought to be
I want to make this clear for both of us tonight
We can’t make this right

(CHORUS)
Cause it’s never quite as simple as “I told you so”
No, it’s never quite as simple as “I told you so”
And it’s never what you want until you’ve lost your hold
No, it’s never quite as simple as “I told you so”

We cover messes with forgiveness and excuses not to leave
But then we always end up right back where we are and shouldn’t be
When ever stone is turned and mud still lines the ground
And there’s no way around…

(CHORUS)

(Bridge)
Because I told you so
And we tried…

You won’t apologize and I won’t wait for you to make amends
I want your love, but I don’t want it if it’s only as a friend
We gave it everything, but nothing’s quite enough

But it’s never quite that simple when you’re letting go
No, it’s never quite that simple when I’m letting go
And it’s never what you want until you’ve lost your hold
No, it’s never quite as simple as I told you so
I told you so.